Entanglement

Balance. Easy to comprehend, hard to put into practice...for me anyway. The further I get into my journey to a better me, the more my past rushes to catch up to my present in the form of my eating disorder. I’m going to try and nutshell, what is a very large, nasty bag to unpack. Nearly twenty years ago, I lost 110 pounds in just ten months—appeared on the cover of Good Housekeeping magazine, the local newspaper, books and catalogs. I did the Atkins diet, but in an extremely unhealthy way. I restricted my carb intake to as close to zero as I could for those ten months and beyond. To curb my appetite, I smoked cigarettes and drank large bottles of wine for dinner every night. Also, I was working out daily. I became obsessed and convinced that if I ate anything, particularly anything with carbohydrates, I was going to gain all the weight back, literally overnight. I looked fantastic, but I was empty and broken inside. Rock bottom came in the cold days and weeks of January 2005, after my ...