Entanglement

Every day, I am awestruck by how happy I am. Some nights, as I'm falling asleep, I realize that my lips are curved up ever so slightly, which makes me break out into a full blown smile and I giggle. Life is so good.  I struggled for so many years to have this, so many years, searching for it—you cannot and will not, ever, find true happiness outside of yourself. If only I had more money, if only I had the right partner, if only I had more support, if only I had a nicer car, a bigger house, a better job, if only I were thinner, if only I lived closer to the mountains, the beach, the city, the country, if only...none of that, none. of. it. will make you happy, and what if-ing and if only-ing is wasted energy projected into a future that does not exist. Life is happening right now. You can choose to be grateful and happy in this moment, or you can choose to blame all the things you don't have, and all of your perceived shitty circumstances for being unhappy. The only thing we hav...