Entanglement

Anton Chekhov once said... Any idiot can face a crisis, it's the day to day living that wears you out ...and a hundred years later those words still ring true. It is especially true for me personally in so many ways as I try to find my footing, and adjust to being on my own. Now more than ever, my children look to me for support, guidance, security and reassurance. When you have to put your groceries on a credit card, because there's only twenty bucks in the checking account for the next week, you learn how to fake it. It's hard maintaining that, day...after day...after day, but I manage to somehow. It's hard to set aside worry, stress and anxiety and choose to walk in faith...but that's what I'm living every single day. I know that if I fixate on all the the things "wrong" with my life, it will consume me. There have been times when it almost has. So...I wake up every morning and put a smile on my face, even on the days when I don't feel like smil...

I don't know how many of you have ever suffered from migraine headaches, but let me tell you....you welcome death when they are really bad. That was me last night—praying for the grim reaper, laying on the couch, ceiling fan pegged out on high, and a trash can close by just in case I had to vomit. Death never came despite my best begging and pleading, so there must be more left for me to do here. I think today is a good day for a gratitude list.... ~I'm grateful for the dawn of a new day. A day filled with unlimited potentials of possibility, just for me. ~I'm grateful for my darling girls who greet me every morning with smiles, kisses and hugs...the kind of hugs that wrap your soul in sweetness and warmth. ~I am grateful for laughter. ~I am grateful for the smell of fresh cut grass on Saturday morning, and the sound of lawn mowers off in the distance. It's so Americana to me. ~I am grateful for unexpected surprises...like phone calls, just because someone wa...