Saturday, December 14, 2024

Standing Rapt in Awe

Recently, I was standing in the backyard bidding the day adieu, watching hues of soft pink and creamsicle orange take over the warm blue sky. I heard them before I saw them, a noisy chattering of starlings. They flew in low and fast, directly above my head, landing in a mostly bare red maple at the edge of my fence. The glorious cacophony of their impromptu gathering left me breathless. In all the years lived here, practicing my ritual of saying goodnight to Mother Earth, never had I experienced starlings, quite literally, at my back door. 

I held my breath, watching them, listening to them speak in language known only to them. They were still, yet aflutter, their collective energy an invisible and palpable force moving through the stark limbs of that red maple like a wave. To most people this moment would just appear to be birds in a tree and go largely unnoticed. To me, this was poetry, this was a gift from the Universe, this was a moment to savor, a moment to etch into the deepest part of my hippocampus to recall when my eyesight, and the rest of me, someday, begins to fade.

Maybe I romanticize these seemingly mundane moments too much, but I don't care. Living in the present moment and being grateful for every opportunity to fully experience and embrace this temporary, temporal existence has changed my life in every way for the better. Perhaps Einstein said it best...

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed."

In the milliseconds before those starlings vacated that red maple it was quiet and calm, and then in unison, like a shot, they ascended back into the twilight sky, their noisy chattering fading into the distance like the setting sun.

  




Thursday, November 14, 2024

Soul Food


Zoysia shouldn't still be green and thriving mid-November, and yet, I will have to mow the lawn soon. Honey bees and bright yellow, cloudless sulphur butterflies frolic on an island of dandelions that have claimed their territory amid the limited expanse of the backyard—falling leaves a juxtaposition. Clouds overhead, dollops of bright white and stormy grey, fight for dominance after a long rainy night. Gusting winds riding the tail end of that front, share the promise of cooler days with each exhale of its breath. The waxing full moon will rise later and cover the night in the softness of her glow. Nocturnal creatures will awaken from their hovels and scour the landscape for sustenance to sustain them for a winter that is running behind schedule, and they are grateful for the reprieve.

Observations made in a moment of standing in stillness, in silence, in reverence of the beauty and poetry of this miraculous world in which we are living is my soul food and every day, I feast.

Vibrate higher. 

       

Monday, November 11, 2024

Gratitude is a Magnet that Attracts Abundance

Abundance beings with gratitude. This is not some hippie dippy new age philosophy, this is a Universal Truth that I have experienced first hand, and life is good. Gratitude begins with being fully aware in this eternal present moment, it begins with honoring and appreciating the little things—dandelions in the spring and happy bees that hasten to pollinate them, standing barefoot on a patch of warm summer sod, tiny delicate purple asters growing wild in the front yard, autumn's first frost, the unconditional love of a pet, reading a good book, laughter—be grateful for whatever it is that brings you joy. 

Conversely, it is imperative to find gratitude during times of hardship and suffering, perhaps it is most important in these times to find even one thing for which to be grateful. It was during a period of seemingly insurmountable, depression and daily financial struggle, that the Light turned on and my Peace was born. The struggle didn't end in that moment, but it made the moments of struggle easier to bear. 

Nicola Tesla once said, "to understand the secrets of the Universe, one should think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration." 

The Universe always says, "yes." If you are vibrating at a low frequency—fear, stress, sadness, worry, anger, hate, spitefulness, jealousy, envy, a lack mindset—that energy, that vibration, will attract more circumstances into your life to keep you rooted there. Once I made a conscious choice to live fully in the present moment, to become aware in the present moment, and simply express gratitude for things I once took for granted, that's when things began to shift, and I'm talking magnitude 10.0 shifting here! 

Once you begin vibrating higher, there is no going back. It's like your DNA has been upgraded and is no longer compatible with that outdated, slower, antiquated mindset. Are there still bad days? Absolutely, but it's uncomfortable to stay too long in those negative frequencies. It's like wearing a burlap suit with a head-to-toe sunburn—it is quite literally, physically uncomfortable—mercifully, gratitude strips off that suit and heals the burn, allowing those higher frequencies, like an old radio, to tune in once again. 

Timelines are shifting, the collective is awakening, the old paradigm is falling away. Life is beautiful. Take a moment to express gratitude for one small thing that brings you joy, practice doing this until it is as natural as breathing. The abundance you seek will follow. 

Vibrate higher.       

Tuesday, October 29, 2024

Health Care or Self Care? My Holistic Approach to Wellness and Dumping All Rx Meds

Christmas 2021, my daughter bought matching sweaters for a family photo. What should have been a happy memory forever frozen in time, turned into the biggest wake up call of my life. I was visibly unwell, heavier than I'd ever been—I looked like a woman who could literally keel over and die at any given moment. I studied those pictures for a long time. Part of me wanted to die. Maybe, subconsciously, I was trying to. 

Years of toxic relationships, struggle, depression, alcohol and tobacco use (sober since 2013) had taken a toll on my mental, spiritual and physical well being. I was on prescription meds for my heart, my depression and anxiety, and my high A1C. I had two choices—keep going down the path to an early grave or claw my way out of the pit I had dug for myself and fucking live.

I chose to live.

I started a plant based diet in January of 2022. I gave up sodas, processed sugars and refined carbohydrates. Most importantly, I prioritized nurturing my Spirit above all else. I drowned myself in Light and Love after too many years of wandering aimlessly in a spiritual desert. I was a desiccated corpse thirsty for solace that only Divine Source could provide, and slowly I began the ascent out of my pit.

I lost fifteen pounds that first month, and after a well check from my doctor, I was given the green light to start weaning off my heart meds. I also took it upon myself to do the same with all my other meds. I became a Certified Herbalist, learning what plants and herbs I needed to incorporate into my daily routine to heal. It was a grand experiment trying organic powders, tinctures, sea mosses, new foods, teas, even shilajit and I am now healthy. 

Meditation practices became a very important part of my wellness routine—sound bowls, crystals, smudging, chanting, journaling, reading and spending time with Source, receiving all the comfort and peace I desperately craved. Look, I made up my mind to make a change, then changed they way I viewed and treated my body, while seeking a deeper connection to Source—that Mind~Body~Spirit connection made me whole...a wholeness that I had, and have, never felt. 

Life looks different now. I have shed my old life like a reptile sheds its skin. I vibrate higher and once you've arrived here, you are fundamentally changed in a way that make words superfluous. We are capable of miraculous things, healing the body is just scratching the surface.

Vibrate higher. Be well.

Peace    


Tuesday, August 20, 2024

Vibrate Higher

Once you have leveled up, there really is no going back. Why on earth would you want to? Back to what—stress, worry, regret, sadness, anxiety, self degradation, fear? When you vibrate higher, none of that resonates with your soul any longer—you view your Self and the World around you through a different lens.

I am grateful for every circumstance I created that brought me to this moment in my life—the suffering, the heartbreak, the mistakes, the embarrassment, the abuse, the love and the loss—Karmic debts paid and soul lessons learned, I have a clean slate. 

I understand what it means to live life to the fullest, to find the beauty in each moment, to simply be grateful for what is—to experience the mind blowing reality that I’m creating with each expression of that gratitude—I have everything I need and everything I could ever want, right here and now. 

Let your Light shine. 


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Monday, July 22, 2024

My Cup Overfloweth

These days, I am so blissfully happy, peaceful, calm and quiet, I feel like the Light within me could vibrate out of my skin into billions of tiny sparkles and float away on the breeze, into infinity. I think of Master Oogway ascending with the petals of the peach tree—if only our transition could be so sublime.

Every moment of my existence is an expression of gratitude and it has changed me, changed my life in ways I only ever imagined. When you are living a grateful life, the Universe will give you more and more things to be grateful for, and let me tell you, I am living my best life and it just gets better every day.

Tuesday, June 11, 2024

Choosing to Be, Happy!

Every day, I am awestruck by how happy I am. Some nights, as I'm falling asleep, I realize that my lips are curved up ever so slightly, which makes me break out into a full blown smile and I giggle. Life is so good. 

I struggled for so many years to have this, so many years, searching for it—you cannot and will not, ever, find true happiness outside of yourself. If only I had more money, if only I had the right partner, if only I had more support, if only I had a nicer car, a bigger house, a better job, if only I were thinner, if only I lived closer to the mountains, the beach, the city, the country, if only...none of that, none. of. it. will make you happy, and what if-ing and if only-ing is wasted energy projected into a future that does not exist.

Life is happening right now. You can choose to be grateful and happy in this moment, or you can choose to blame all the things you don't have, and all of your perceived shitty circumstances for being unhappy. The only thing we have control over in any given situation, in any given moment in "time" is our attitude about it. You must choose to be happy, or not. I'm sorry not sorry for telling you the truth.

The moment I decided to live in the present moment and be grateful—grateful for everything, even so called "bad" things, is when my life shifted. This was my awakening. The more I practiced this simple way of being, the better my life got. Any time I felt like I was sliding back into programmed habits, I immediately brought myself back to this moment and found something for which to be grateful, and I still do that—less frequently now though, because my life is fucking amazing.

Happiness, as it turns out, is Me. I am Happiness. I am the embodiment of Source Energy, Unconditional Love, Divine Light and Bliss. Gratitude and Present Moment Awareness are the keeper of the keys to Happiness. 

There is a global shift in consciousness happening and it's picking up speed. All the lies of the old paradigm are falling away and people are waking up. I'm so incredibly grateful to be here, to experience these profound moments—and I’m happy, ever happy.

Be well.        

Tuesday, May 14, 2024

Here


I protect my energy, fiercely. I protect it because it took me a long time to get here. And, where is here exactly? Here is a higher state of mind. Here is a higher state of being, a higher vibration, a higher frequency. Here is gratitude and love and peace so profound that it defies logic. It bends the mind on every level. Everything is better here. Nothing is mundane here. There is intention and magic and extraordinary things happening here, in this present moment. I am steeped in gratitude. 

Gratitude and present moment awareness are the keeper of the keys to an unimaginable Life—one filled with more Peace, Love and Abundance than you ever dreamed possible. 

Thursday, April 11, 2024

Abundance

One day, you realize that you have seamlessly moved into that which you have been manifesting. There is no slap in the face, profound, ah-ha moment—you’re just there. It’s a feeling of believing and disbelieving, simultaneously. 

Wait, it’s really happened? You ask yourself. 

You laugh through tears. You feel intense gratification and unbridled joy, but under the surface there is peace and calm as if this was always meant to be, because it was. 

It is. 

The Universe is not short on abundance. As a matter of fact, it is limitless. 

When you choose to live in the present moment, consciously aware, and grateful for everything, everything , you unconsciously become an expression of that gratitude, and abundance flows into you like a river.

I’m drowning in the river, ever grateful. 




 




Tuesday, March 19, 2024

Morning Time

 


Early morning, is my time. Valkyrie and I rise with the sun, oftentimes we are present just before our star breaks the horizon, painting that black line with breathtakingly vibrant hues of magenta, orange and yellow. Val is indifferent, but I am awed by its magnificence. 

Robins are the first birds to sing in the morning. Their song, an orchestral delight for my ears only. The sun slowly rising with the singing birds announcing the arrival of a new day, is being witness to a moment of divine creation. 

In that moment I am the quintessence of peace, of calm, of bliss…because I am One with Everything. My body thrums with the vibration of Life, my Spirit becomes golden light and I feel like time is standing still. And then the brilliant rays of the sun crest that imaginary plane, and the day begins. 


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Wednesday, March 6, 2024

What is the Universe Saying to You?

Life can be awful, tragic, painful and unfair. But Life can also be surprising, unexpected and utterly beautiful. Listen. Pay attention when the Universe is speaking to you. She will send you little signs and messages, maybe so subtle that you skim right over them. They will keep coming. They will keep coming until you acknowledge them, or until you are pushed so far outside of your comfort zone that you have no choice but to acquiesce. And when you do, be ready for your life to unfold and blossom like a daffodil basking in the warm rays of the sun in Spring. 


I am always awed by what happens when I surrender to the calling of my soul's purpose in these precious moments that make up my Life. Is it hard sometimes? Absolutely fucking crippling, to be honest, but we can’t grow if nothing ever changes. And those changes just might be opening a door you never, ever, would have opened willingly. Let the Light flood in through that portal and bathe in the golden abundance of all that the Universe wants to give to you. Accept it with Gratitude and Love and watch the miracles happen. 


Peace. 

Friday, February 9, 2024

Peace and Quiet

Spirit calls me to quiet of late. My thoughts, a flat calm. Is it the sublimely spring-like weather that beckons me to porch sitting, or is it the musical flurry of finches, sparrows and juncos that I long to be near? Does it matter? I have never in my life known peace so complete. I feel connected to all things and when it is my time to transition from this earthly realm, my energy will simply return home, to All That Is, like a wave returning to the sea. We are not just a drop in the ocean—we are the entire ocean in a single drop. The whole of the Universe is inside you. You are never, ever alone. 



Sunday, January 7, 2024

Light Work

I write. I write poetry, nonfiction, flash fiction, short stories, children’s books, blogs, and spicy romance under a pen name. 

It’s been said that you should write what you know. Well, I know a lot about heartbreak and struggle—less about happiness, peace and gratitude, but I’m learning, and I’m not vain enough anymore to believe that my life is worthy of reading about any more than any of yours—everyone has a story to tell—but, writing is my calling, my therapy, my island of sanity that ever saves me. Read it. Don’t read it. No matter. 

Childhood trauma, loneliness, low self-esteem, alcohol dependency, toxic relationships, suicidal thoughts, severe depression, panic attacks, anxiety, worry, fear…a lifetime of pain healed during my dark night of the soul. For those who don’t know, the phrase, “dark night of the soul” is often used informally to describe an extremely difficult and painful period in one’s life. 

Mine lasted 15 years. 

Then one day, an epiphany, and the storm was over, just like that. I remember the exact moment, I suspect I always will as it was profound, instant—life changing. Now, I view life through a different lens. I have been awakened and once this has happened to you, there is no going back. 

The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. -Matthew 6:22  IYKYK 




Peace ♥️


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Thursday, January 4, 2024

We Are Awakening

We have been conditioned, all of us, duped into thinking and believing Life has to be lived a certain way, according to a rigid system and set of rules—rules set by whom, exactly? 

If you deviate from that way, that straight and narrow inflexible path, to live your life as authentically you, well then, you are a ne’er-do-well, you’re bad, a troublemaker, an outcast, a heathen, a hippie, an outright black sheep crazy person. People will want to pray for you to get back in line, but baby, you’ve found your wings and are soaring above all that hate, keep flying. 

I’m here to tell you to not only think out of the box, but to climb out of the box, step out of line, dare to be different, dare to think for yourself, buck the system, heed the call of your inner voice, listen—LISTEN to your gut, it’s your Godspeak after all, wake up and open your mind. 

Big things are happening, unprecedented things. It’s time to call back your power, to step into the fullness of your being, of who you truly are. You chose this time to be here. It’s time to experience the Oneness of Christ Consciousness and the unconditional love, the unbelievable peace that comes from experiencing, knowing and understanding that you are not alone. You never were. 

Separation is a myth. You are loved more than you can fathom. 

Be well.