In Losing my Libido, I Found the Truest Version of Me

I used to want

To be wanted, obsessively 

I used to want

To feel, loved 

I used to want

To be with someone 

I used to

No one prepares you for the time in your life when you slip quietly into frigidity. Not that I have an aversion to, what used to be, a very important part of my life. The desire is merely non existent. It melted away like a snow drift in Spring—slowly, gradually, until one day you no longer notice it’s there. It’s just gone. It’s a bittersweet parting of ways that opens up a whole new way of looking at life through a different lens. I’m forever grateful for all the years prior to this changing, they were not wasted.

#growingolder #growingold #growingoldgracefully #gratefulforthislife

Fk the Status Quo

The rat race, the grind, the hustle, keeping up, getting ahead, FOMO—we’ve been brainwashed into believing that if we work hard, we’ll be rewarded with a fat bag and a life full of nice things that will make us happy: the big house in the country club neighborhood, the ridiculously expensive whip, an impressive 401K, designer clothes, a gym fit body and an unrecognizable face full of toxins and fillers. That’s the dream we’ve been sold, right? Well, I call it a nightmare. I’ve had some of those things, the house, the car, the clothes, the body and I was about as far away from happy as one can be. 

Twenty some years down the road and I have never been more happy, more content or felt more at peace—Life is decluttered, simplified. Deeply connected to Source and fully present in the moment, my gratitude practice has fundamentally changed my life in every way. Life flows with more meaning, more vibrancy and more abundance.  There is an ease, an unhurried sweetness in each moment that I wouldn’t trade for anything in this world. 

Nah—you can keep your status quo. Give the Joneses my regards. You will find me in a cozy, tiny home, surrounded by mature shade trees, a babbling brook, wildlife, a cup of something warm, a cotton throw and a good book, wealthy beyond my wildest imaginings. Life, is a miracle. 

The Dream Home

Be well.