Entanglement

Zoysia shouldn't still be green and thriving mid-November, and yet, I will have to mow the lawn soon. Honey bees and bright yellow, cloudless sulphur butterflies frolic on an island of dandelions that have claimed their territory amid the limited expanse of the backyard—falling leaves a juxtaposition. Clouds overhead, dollops of bright white and stormy grey, fight for dominance after a long rainy night. Gusting winds riding the tail end of that front, share the promise of cooler days with each exhale of its breath. The waxing full moon will rise later and cover the night in the softness of her glow. Nocturnal creatures will awaken from their hovels and scour the landscape for sustenance to sustain them for a winter that is running behind schedule, and they are grateful for the reprieve. Observations made in a moment of standing in stillness, in silence, in reverence of the beauty and poetry of this miraculous world in which we are living is my soul food and every day, I feast. Vibr...

Abundance beings with gratitude. This is not some hippie dippy new age philosophy, this is a Universal Truth that I have experienced first hand, and life is good. Gratitude begins with being fully aware in this eternal present moment, it begins with honoring and appreciating the little things—dandelions in the spring and happy bees that hasten to pollinate them, standing barefoot on a patch of warm summer sod, tiny delicate purple asters growing wild in the front yard, autumn's first frost, the unconditional love of a pet, reading a good book, laughter—be grateful for whatever it is that brings you joy.  Conversely, it is imperative to find gratitude during times of hardship and suffering, perhaps it is most important in these times to find even one thing for which to be grateful. It was during a period of seemingly insurmountable, depression and daily financial struggle, that the Light turned on and my Peace was born. The struggle didn't end in that moment, but it made the mom...

Christmas 2021, my daughter bought matching sweaters for a family photo. What should have been a happy memory forever frozen in time, turned into the biggest wake up call of my life. I was visibly unwell, heavier than I'd ever been—I looked like a woman who could literally keel over and die at any given moment. I studied those pictures for a long time. Part of me wanted to die. Maybe, subconsciously, I was trying to.  Years of toxic relationships, struggle, depression, alcohol and tobacco use (sober since 2013) had taken a toll on my mental, spiritual and physical well being. I was on prescription meds for my heart, my depression and anxiety, and my high A1C. I had two choices—keep going down the path to an early grave or claw my way out of the pit I had dug for myself and fucking live. I chose to live. I started a plant based diet in January of 2022. I gave up sodas, processed sugars and refined carbohydrates. Most importantly, I prioritized nurturing my Spirit above all else. I ...

Once you have leveled up, there really is no going back. Why on earth would you want to? Back to what—stress, worry, regret, sadness, anxiety, self degradation, fear? When you vibrate higher, none of that resonates with your soul any longer—you view your Self and the World around you through a different lens. I am grateful for every circumstance I created that brought me to this moment in my life—the suffering, the heartbreak, the mistakes, the embarrassment, the abuse, the love and the loss—Karmic debts paid and soul lessons learned, I have a clean slate.  I understand what it means to live life to the fullest, to find the beauty in each moment, to simply be grateful for what is—to experience the mind blowing reality that I’m creating with each expression of that gratitude—I have everything I need and everything I could ever want, right here and now.  Let your Light shine.  #vibratehigher #levelup #soulgrowth #grateful #presentmoment #allwehaveisnow

These days, I am so blissfully happy, peaceful, calm and quiet, I feel like the Light within me could vibrate out of my skin into billions of tiny sparkles and float away on the breeze, into infinity. I think of Master Oogway ascending with the petals of the peach tree—if only our transition could be so sublime. Every moment of my existence is an expression of gratitude and it has changed me, changed my life in ways I only ever imagined. When you are living a grateful life, the Universe will give you more and more things to be grateful for, and let me tell you, I am living my best life and it just gets better every day.

Every day, I am awestruck by how happy I am. Some nights, as I'm falling asleep, I realize that my lips are curved up ever so slightly, which makes me break out into a full blown smile and I giggle. Life is so good.  I struggled for so many years to have this, so many years, searching for it—you cannot and will not, ever, find true happiness outside of yourself. If only I had more money, if only I had the right partner, if only I had more support, if only I had a nicer car, a bigger house, a better job, if only I were thinner, if only I lived closer to the mountains, the beach, the city, the country, if only...none of that, none. of. it. will make you happy, and what if-ing and if only-ing is wasted energy projected into a future that does not exist. Life is happening right now. You can choose to be grateful and happy in this moment, or you can choose to blame all the things you don't have, and all of your perceived shitty circumstances for being unhappy. The only thing we hav...

I protect my energy, fiercely. I protect it because it took me a long time to get here. And, where is here exactly? Here is a higher state of mind. Here is a higher state of being, a higher vibration, a higher frequency. Here is gratitude and love and peace so profound that it defies logic. It bends the mind on every level. Everything is better here. Nothing is mundane here. There is intention and magic and extraordinary things happening here, in this present moment. I am steeped in gratitude.  Gratitude and present moment awareness are the keeper of the keys to an unimaginable Life—one filled with more Peace, Love and Abundance than you ever dreamed possible.