The Road Ahead

Two weeks ago, today, I started my new life. Gone is the emotional overload that accompanied this change...stress, anticipation, anxiety, sadness, excitement, fear...I haven't really had time to fully process this whole experience. A week of unpacking and getting settled was followed by shopping for miscellaneous necessities that go toward making a household function. Then there was a family reunion to distract me from the stark reality of my situation—which was great by the way. Now, without any kind of frantic schedule looming on the horizon, I'm left thinking...what next?

My life is just that now...my life. I will always have a connection to my past, and I will always be a mother to two amazing girls, but suddenly I don't feel defined by that any longer. Who am I? What do I want from life? The landscape before me is vast, wide open, a long road stretching into an empty horizon. Will the road ahead be rough, filled with potholes and roadblocks? Will it be a scenic highway with fantastic points of interest to enjoy? Will I be a lonely traveler, or will I have company on my journey? My life at this moment is the very definition of the unknown. 

 All of us face an uncertain future, so I am not unique in not knowing what is in store. For me, however, it is the first time in my adult life that I am on my own. I alone hold the keys to open whatever doors I choose. It is up to me to be fearless and passionate in my pursuit of happiness and success. I intend to make each moment count, to make each day memorable, and to live life out loud...with my whole heart...accepting whatever the Universe has in store for me, be it road bumps-a-lot or the scenic highway.