Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Givin' Up On Bein' Got

Finding someone in this life who understands you—really understands, really gets who you are and actually wants to, is like searching for the Holy Grail, you begin to wonder if it even exists. Forget about ever finding someone who will love you no matter what, without condition—you'd sooner find a unicorn, or a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. I hear my childlike inner voice sassing me...just because you haven't found it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Well, let me tell you I'm all done lookin'. If it is out there, it's going to have to come looking for me, and it better show up looking like a mythical creature in order for me to believe.

If you are in a relationship and you are saying...but I do love my husband/wife no matter what...think about this—loving someone unconditionally means you love them with perfect love despite their flaws. So, when your husband leaves his tighty whiteys on the bathroom floor, skid mark side up for you to ogle...do you show perfect love? When your wife packs on thirty pounds and watching her eat triggers your gag reflex...do you show perfect love? When the two of you share a king sized bed and only occupy four or five inches of the edge to avoid touching each other...is that a display of perfect love? What about snoring, backseat driving, morning breath, nose hairs, saggy tits, nagging, toenail clippings, forgetting to close the lid, body odors, infidelity, etc., etc., etc....do we exercise perfect love?

Yeah well, what do I know. I'm a twice divorced mother of two who will probably wind up alone with a bunch of cats. My faith is shaken.

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