The Burn

Wasted years, I've lost myself 
And now can't find my way. 
Burning in a silent hell 
Each and every day. 
A woman stares through lifeless eyes, 
Surely, that's not me. 
My reflection mocks a life 
And memories of what used to be. 
How can I move forward 
When I'm stuck in yesterday? 
Courted by nostalgia 
It's hard to look away. 
I am haunted by a time and place 
To which I can't return. 
So here I am, my daily hell 
And silently I burn.



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